Following Happiness

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First comes love...then comes marriage...then comes a baby in a carriage! That phrase loops in my head as I look at my work calendar. Engagement session here, wedding there, newborn session later. It really is a continuous cycle of excitement! As a photographer I have the wondrous opportunity to capture the story of families. I get to meet them as a couple, then as husband and wife, and later down the road as mother and father. I get to see tiny little newborn babies grow to slobbering and gurgling toddlers to silly adorable little munchkins running everywhere! flower skirtI love what I do. And I'm forever grateful for the steps that led me to my career...even though they were steep and sometime treacherous. It was actually my trials and triumphs over breast cancer that caused me to truly open my eyes and take a leap into the directions of my dream. Chemotherapy knocked me down pretty hard. Most days I wouldn't have the strength even to drive my car (ok, it didn't help that my car was stick shift at that time!). But on the rare occasions when I felt good I'd jump on the chance to go on a motorcycle ride or hang out with friends. During those times I'd always have my camera handy and take photos. Then during my icky days I was able to relive the moments by looking at when I was held hostage by our living room sofa.

Throughout my adventure with cancer I snapped away photos...with my cell phone or with my DSLR camera. It was my husband who suggested I start practicing portrait photography on days when I had energy enough to get up and about. So I did! I started with friends then on to friends of friends. It was amazing! Each time I did a session I had a wonderful time of socializing and being surrounded by happy energy. I would work on the images on the days when I was home bound. Then whenever I revealed the images to them their heartfelt gratitude always warmed my heart. I had found my calling!

In truth, I still went back to my high stress job after chemo and radiation. But I took the next step and started doing photography part-time on the side as something to look forward to. It wasn't until the end of 2011 that I just couldn't stand my job anymore. It got to the point that waking up in the morning filled me with dread and made me sick to the stomach thinking of my 8 hour day ahead. I had just gone through the hardest time of my life and knowing that stress may have been a part of what triggered my breast cancer was a big epiphany. What was I doing continuing a path that cause me such heartache?!? Shame on me!So I took the leap. I left my job and started a career. I followed my heart and started doing photography full-time. I've been cancer free three years now and that goes hand in hand with how long I've been self-employed. I've met so many wonderful people (both clients and networking) and have really flourished as a photographer. There may be many negative things that cancer represents, but for me, it was a stepping stone to following my path of self discovery and healing.